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alotlikeadam [userpic]

babyyyyyyyy!

March 14th, 2008 (06:19 am)
loved

current mood: loved
current song: Fall For You

The Person That I'm Going To Spend Forever With.

alotlikeadam [userpic]

<3

March 13th, 2008 (09:35 pm)
exhausted

current mood: exhausted
current song: none

So I have this bestfriend of mine, who puts herself down constantly, and it's really upsetting. I love her to death and i don't ever wnat to see anything happen to her, EVER. but she's truley beautiful. and I'd die if I lost her out of my life. She's seriously the only girl who I don't get annoyed by, or tired of. She's perfect. I love talking to her, I love everything about her. If she was a boy or if I were straight, I'd be all over that, if I didn't have daniel. hahaha. anyways ! Dawnann, I love you so much. I hate when you say that you're ugly, and when you think that I hate you, or am just being nice. I'd never hate you, and I'd never say things just to "be nice" because I wouldn't want someone doing that to me, So I'm not going to do it to someone, because i know what it feels like. Baby, I love you. You're my best friend, until the day that I die, you're gorgeous, beautiful, amazing, outstanding :D I love you i love you i love you i loveyou, don't ever forget it, ever. I'll never ever get tired of you, and I'll never lie to you, or sugar coat things with you. What I say, I mean, and I mean what I say. I speak the truth and only the truth. I hate lies, and I don't want to take any part in them, ever agian. I love you so much. You're beautiful, the end. <33

alotlikeadam [userpic]

and i'd burn the building, if i knew you'd die.

March 11th, 2008 (11:16 pm)
loved

current mood: a hopeless romantic
current song: a day to remember

I really miss Daniel so much, I haven't had a real conversation with him in days, it's killing me inside and out. I need this boy to live, he's my heart, my oxygen, my lungs. :[[[ There's no one else that I would rather be with, nobody could make me feel like he does. He's perfect, everything that I could ever want, and love. Everything that I need. Everything to me. He's my life. Fuck... Daniel. You need to realize how amazing you are,  how perfect. how much you mean to me. I hope you're as for real as I am about us baby because if you ever decide to go, i'll die baby.. :[[[ I'll seriously die without you. Fuck, I love you so god damn much. it's bringing tears to my eyes writing this. I'm so in love with you.. and i don't ever want it to end. I'm so sure about you, i'm so sure that you're the right one for me, you're perfect for me. you're what i've always hoped to find and i've finally found. aand without you i'm nothing.. literally.. you're everything to me, you make me whole, you're...fucking .. my life. :[[[ I love you with every ounce of blood in my body. I can't wait for your lips to meet mine. . . <3

love, Adam

alotlikeadam [userpic]

ughhhh

March 9th, 2008 (11:14 pm)
aggravated

current mood: aggravated
current song: just surrender

My head is pounding, i mean. it hurts fucking bad. I hate drama. i hate when people won't open up to me, when all i want to do is be a friend, and to help them.. then I tell them about shit i've heard and they say shti like thinking i believe it all or something when im just telling them you know, letting them know people talk shit bout them or whatever.. i also hate people who lie, even if i hate the person they're lying to, they're still lying. and it makes me feel insecure about the things they tell me.

ohhh adammm: why you cant tell anyone the truth
n: i cant tell anyone that i dont like them

in: he also told tony azzolina that me and him were in a band together
in: and i told tony that not even i knew abnout that..
vin: ian doesnt know shit about me..
in: last i talked to him my parents were fucking happily married
ohhh adammm: yeah idk im just telling you what he told me i didnt say that i believed it because i dont believe anybody.
vin: what ever..
ohhh adammm: dont get all mad at me !
vin: im not



like fuck people... seriously, all they do is piss me off. like, i dont even know. i dont trust anyone, or believe anyone. i think everyone is just a lie, and all that they do is lie to me, and i just dont know what to believe, this world is so fucked up, i just want out. i just want to be somewhere with people who i can trust, and take their word on everything, where people aren't going to sugar coat shit and tell me what i want to hear, i want the truth, i want blunt people, honest people. people who aren't afraid to hurt my feelings. i dont give a fuck what you think about me, just tell me instead of lying to me, and pretending to like me, and pretending to be my firend. bceause i dont trust any of you because i think that you're all the same, all liars. i can tell you one thing though, i dont lie. i hate people who lie, i dont want to be something that i hate, so im not something that i hate, im honest, ill never tell you things that i dont mean. so take that shit and shove it up your ass, because ify ou're giong to lie to me, dont even talk to me, just stop, right now. and turn around, and walk your sorry ass right back out the door. and dont forget to fall down the stairs and break your face open on the way out because you dont deserve to be alive, you don't deserve love, life, or honesty, you deserve a fucking kick in the teeth and a stab in the back. so fuck off, i hate people. seriously, fuck everyone.

therse only a few of you who this doesn't apply to
and i want to say thank you, i love you. <3.

alotlikeadam [userpic]

eh

March 9th, 2008 (07:29 pm)
cold

current mood: cold

Im sickkk. and sleepy. and freezing. I don't know what to do with myself. :[

alotlikeadam [userpic]

to put it short...

March 8th, 2008 (10:00 pm)
depressed

current mood: depressed
current song: heels over head.

I want to die, really bad.
 

alotlikeadam [userpic]

woow.

March 8th, 2008 (06:20 pm)
crappy

current mood: crappy

I forgot I had one of these things.. lol and i only had like two entries, but anyways.. i guess im going to start using this more because I've got a lot of shit on my chest that needs to get off.. idc if anyone reads this or whatever, it's just for me and stuff.... haha. anyways.  I'm so so so fucking in love with this boy, Daniel. he's my weakness and my strength is loving him. . . honestly he makes my life worth living.. he makes me so fucking happy, I've never once in my life been so happy to be with someone and to love someone and to have someone love me back as i am right now. like, all i want is him, everyone else can do what they want, try what they want, say what they want but all that I want is him.. and the time we spend apart kills me every second. I can't wait til I can have him all to myself, in my arms, in my life.. just with me all of the time. because it will be perfectly amazing and I'll never want it to end, and it will never end. apart from that, my life outside Daniel sucks nuts. Hard. It's really hard to like keep going sometimes, and sometimes I just want to give it all up.. I've cut down on getting high all of the time, and drinking myself to sleep every night. and other depression resources that I look for.. and tbh, my babycakes is the only one keeping me here. I really hope he knows how much he means to me.. My head's like spinning and I don't know what to do... and I really don't know where I'm going with all of this, it's just all coming out in like, pieces and I can't even get into my own head it's really hard to open up to anything or anyone, even just to writing things down for myself. I hate telling people how I feel about things in my life or anything in general because I don't want people to feel sorry for me or to think that I'm looking for attention. I need a fix though, if that makes sense. I wish I had Daniel here, then everything would all be better, but I don't so.. it can't be until that is made possible I guess. well right now, i don't think it can. . fuck. I miss him :[  ugh. fuck distance. It makes me hurt.  but I can deal with it. hmhmhmhmhmhmhmhmhm....... I hate living here, by the way. I really do. I'm moving in about a week. *sigh* I hate sickness, my throat has been killing me all day... and im tired :[ I don't really know what else to say. bleh. If you see this, I love you Daniel.   

alotlikeadam [userpic]

Mmmmmm.

September 30th, 2007 (03:26 pm)
okay

current mood: okay

 I'm so tired, and sickly. My tummy feels like some little tummy trolls are buliding a fire and stuff. :S hahaha. Uuuuuuuuuhm. I'm pretty happy aside from that though. I found the things that mean the most to me, and got rid of the ones that I thought meant alot but really don't... so I'm pretty okayyyy. boo for sickness. last night was intense. my friends and i got too hgih to know where we were. dev passed out and then alyson and i called kyle LOL i felt like a dumbass :( :( :( he was prolly like "ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww" when he heard me. :| i dont sound gross all the time i prms. lmao So. i dont remember much of that night but kyles voice. :] <33333333333333 







anyways. im gonna go. take a nap or something.

alotlikeadam [userpic]

Yeah so

September 26th, 2007 (10:01 pm)
stressed

current mood: stressed

I just made this, I haven't had one of these in a while.. but yeah, *sigh* I'm really tired, and I don't know what to do with myself. lol 

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